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[25 May 2007|09:41pm] |
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I dont think ive loggen onto livejournal in a very long time. i lost touch with it but i think that is for the best. so...what have i been up to?
-20 credit hours
-oboe
-love life
-20 credit hours
-phi mu alpha
-stress
-lost 30 lbs.
-20 credit hours
its been hell but it was a good semester. im looking foward to this summer as soon as summer A is over (stats sucks). im really excited about next year. i might not be doing HOT band again but i have enough on my plate with sinfonia and being on staff with FOW.
im still a music major and i feel like im doing a pretty good job. only 2 more years till grad school. i still remember making this LJ back in high school when i wanted to be a doctor. heh...thank god i didnt go through with that. a lot of you still talk to me and know what ive been doing. but what about everyone else?
i think this might be the last time i write in here. i dont need a place to vent like i used to. gimme a call sometime if its been a while.
-Adam "2 months till im 21" Hollenbeck
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| anger issues? |
[26 Nov 2006|11:35am] |
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lately, some people have been asking me "whats wrong?" or "why have you been acting so on edge lately?" at first, i wasn't sure why. i questioned who or what was causing me to act not like myself. in the end, some close friends feel that its a bad case of passive aggressiveness and i think that makes sense. usually it must not be a problem but i guess it's bottled up a lot this semester. i get so mad sometimes and i never tell anyone how i feel. im afraid to cause problems, burn bridges, or just step on someone's toes. ive never been the kind of person who lets themselves get angry. i never want to be that guy who gets mad and yells at people. i have issues with expressing anger sometimes.
i dont know what to do. im afraid of everything bottling up to the point where i have a huge surge of anger. i dont want that.
im scared.
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[25 Nov 2006|12:25am] |
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College has really made me ignore LJ. so here's the adam hollenbeck update:
+grades are amazing
-sleep level isn't
+practicing more
-finals week and big presentation coming up
+all is well overall
-with some stress/fraternity drama
things are going really well.i actually went home for once and it was the same as usual: see some friends, randomly run into people at wal-mart, and playing DD because you aren't 21. im heading back to tampa on saturday cause we have a basketball game an im in the pep band (still unsure if its a good thing or a bad thing) and then 3 more weeks of working my ass off before i get a little break.
for those of you who are off in college, we need to have some fun over winter break. chances are i'll be gone for a few day though (USF is going to a bowl game again...most likely in alabama) but i think we can work something out.
thats all for now. keep it fun and keep it real bitches!! (yeah...im not funny)
-Adam
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[17 Oct 2006|09:07pm] |
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so yeah...this is the first time i've updated since august 6th. so much has gone on that i'm not sure where to start.
classes have been crazy, phi mu alpha has been pretty in depth and time consuming, and the relationship is still going well. i've kept my grades up to my usual standards and i'm glad i can still find time to have fun. there really isnt much else to say. if youve been around me, then you already know about my life. if not, call me.
well im off to finish up another busy night.
my phone was stolen last weekend and i lost all of my numbers. if you still want me to have your number, then leave a reply.
-Adam
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| school daze |
[06 Aug 2006|11:43pm] |
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thankfully summer has come and is almost gone. the break was nice but it got boring. i missed being busy. but at least i kept busy these last few weeks. working with the band at Land o Lakes was a fantastic experience. it turns out that i can handle myself as a teacher better than i thought. and it feels good knowing that music education is still what i want to do with my life. its very rewarding knowing that you helped a group of kids and you get to see the progress.
but enough about that. i do feel sorry for those kids though. they have to be at school in like 8 hours from now (or less) and i still have a couple weeks to get ready. I have one more week till i move into Avalon and im very much looking foward to getting back into the groove. i miss being busy, being with nicole, being with the brothers and close friends. band camp should be fun this year being that i actually know more than 5 people in the Herd of Thunder now.
I've learned my lesson from last year. all im bringing into the apartment is bedding, bathroom crap, laptop, tv, music-related things, and clothing. im hoping to get it all done in one trip...but i have the feeling that that wont work out.
enough about my life. im gonna miss working but im looking foward to starting the school year.
-Adam
ps- i didnt think i'd make any money this summer cause i couldnt get my office job back. i was wrong. i ended up making about $900 in two weeks. so i cant complain.giggidy!
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[30 Jul 2006|05:00pm] |
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this summer has been rather dull. other than trips into tampa to see friends, visiting nicole and running into high school buddies here and there, i have not had much of an exciting summer. i wish i had gotten a job the week after the surgery but i waited too long. but soon enough, things will go back into full gear and im looking foward to it (minus the 18 credit hours). i have 2 weeks untill i move into the apartment and i cant be more excited.
lately i have had a lot to do though. Work has been going very well. the band at Land O' Lakes is young but determined. they're learning and having fun. i feel that thats more important right now than rushing to get drill on the field. i think they'll have a good, strong season.
but working at a high school makes me feel old. all of those kids were born in the 90's. on top of that, i will no longer be a teenager come tuesday. i havent asked for much for my b-day other than things i need. for example, i need to replace my weak digital camera. so my new one should arrive tomorrow. anyone want a used camera?
thats all for now. im just trying to enjoy whats left of the summer before everything gets going. first, its move in, then band camp, then classes, then phi mu alpha.
this year is looking brighter than last year already.
-Adam
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[25 Jun 2006|09:26pm] |
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i've had a lot of fun this past week. i finally started up playing oboe again (for the first time since surgery) and it's going very well. but whats more important is the last few days. on thursday, friday, and saturday, i drove to tampa each day to attend parties hosed by friends and fraternity brothers.
on the first night, i enjoyed myself in moderation and took a swim afterwards, followed by a 4 hour nap on porker's couch.
on the second night i enjoyed myself in excess and looked back on the effects of such decisions.
and on the third night, i rested within the chaos of the gathering. contemplations consumed my clear mind. i slept a full 8 hours and drove home.
as u can all assume it was a busy weekend. but that aside, i have things on my mind. i feel numb and well...emo. it reminds me of high school. feeling helpless though opportunity surrounds me. my mind procrastinates my life. all i want to do is play some oboe and get on with everything.
well...at least im playing oboe.
i know theres nothing wrong with me. theres just something there.
-Adam
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| summer |
[01 Jun 2006|06:50pm] |
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being back home so far has really not been the best of times. no job as of yet, and nothing do to during the day. extreme boredom is getting to me. I feel like my life was left in tampa sometimes. hanging out with my brothers late into the night, bennigans, the school of music, time with nicole. i miss having responsibilities. at home, there is nothing for me. life sorta stopped when i came home and it didnt hit me till i got over the surgery. i want my life. i miss being busy, going to classes, staying up late and waking up early as hell. i miss being my own parent. i was good at that (note the 3.58 gpa). i miss my prison-type dorm and all of the people that made my life worth living. this place is too much of a drag for me to deal with anymore. i need to get outta my house. for just a night or two, i wanna have fun again like i used to.
im counting the days till i go back to usf. as tough at it can be sometimes, i really miss it.
-Adam
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| zombie challenge/surgery update |
[24 May 2006|03:05pm] |
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after reading jade's latest livejournal post about the absolute amazingness of zombie films, i've decided to post a couple zombie movie challenges that ive done. some are retarded while others are dumb
1. make a big ass sandwich. greasy, sloppy, and meat-filled. then sit back and watch the day of the dead. but save the sandwich for the last 20 minutes or so. thats when it gets gross.
2. watch any zombie movie in your house at night. no lights on at all and open every door to every room in the house. it will be the creepiest bathroom break ever.
3.watch land of the dead. the challenge is trying to watch it without getting pissed off at the notion that a zombie can think. IT'S DEAD!
thats all for now. im feeling a little better since my surgery. i still cant breathe out of my nose at all. but thats due to the metal supports up there so that my nose wont cave in on itself. the throat actually doesnt feel that bad. since im eating a sandwich at the moment, it must be getting better. the pain meds are annoying. all they really do is make me feel a little tired for a half hour or so. doesnt do much for the pain.
i go back to the doctor tomorrow. hopefully he'll remove the metal crap from my nose. i miss leaving the house. on a good note, i lost 12 lbs. from not being able to eat. but gimme a couple trips to hooters and i'll be back to my old self.
i'd call some of you guys more but i still cant talk very well. hopefully, i'll see a few of you guys on saturday at christine's grad. party. hope everyone is doing well and enjoying their summer. i know i will in a couple of weeks. fucking tonsils
-Adam
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| nose job? |
[18 May 2006|01:35pm] |
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so im home...in pain. i had the surgery yesterday and it went well. however, recovery is the bitch of it all. i had my tonsils out and a nose job (sort of). the plus side is that i wont be getting so sick all the time and hopefully i wont snore so damn much.
thats all i really have to say. i wouldnt bother calling me (i still cant talk very well) so sent an IM, text, or e-mail and i'll be sure to reply
-Adam
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